The purpose of my page is to share my pregnancy loss experience with people. I want to help Pregnant Moms, Moms who have went through a Stillbirth, are currently going through Stillbirth, are at high risk in their Pregnancy, as well as Nurses and Doctors. I’d also like to spread awareness to Stillbirth. I want Pregnant Moms to take charge of their care and their babies health. I want Moms who have went through Stillbirth to know you aren’t the only one going through it or that’s went through it and I share your pain. I wish someone would have shared with me what I’m going to share on my blog. I wish as I was going through the pain of my baby boy being Stillborn, I could have went on to my blog and read my experiences to not only feel less alone but also to know how to
cope with my loss and to look forward to a happy future. I want Nurses and Doctors to understand how important every single patient and their baby is and what it feels like to be in the shoes of a Stillborn Mommy. I want Nurses and Doctors to show compassion and to be extremely supportive for any patient going through Stillbirth because you can make a huge difference in just how negative the tragedy is or will be.
I’m a 23 year old Mom of a Stillborn baby boy who I gave birth to on September 10th, 2016 at 33 weeks pregnant. I am also currently 23 weeks pregnant with a baby girl and I switched to a new, caring practice and I’m doing everything possible to make sure my baby girl is born healthy, happy and alive. After my son, Hunter, was born in September 2016, I began working
almost immediately because I couldn’t stand the pain of wishing everything that happened hadn’t really happened. I wished I could hold my baby boy, and I can’t even begin to explain the pain of walking past his Nursery. I couldn’t go into his Nursery for months, when I did, I’d cry. Less than a month after I delivered Hunter, I was diagnosed with Pulmonary Embolism – multiple blood clots in both of my lungs. I could have and probably should have died. The symptoms I had leading up to my Pulmonary Embolism will hopefully be able to help other woman who are or were pregnant and could have a Pulmonary Embolism. I will be making blog posts in reference to the symptoms I had with the Pulmonary Embolism. The main symptom which was dismissed by my OBGYN as being caused by my son being stillborn? Anxiety. I had anxiety for the first time in my entire life… I kept explaining to my Mom and doctor that I’d never felt anxiety before and I was shocked because I’m not very emotional and I’m able to logically think through everything. Anxiety was always funny to me because I couldn’t believe people can just irrationally fear anything… my Mom has anxiety and has always been so worried about everything so I was for the first time in my life feeling an irrational worry about everything and nothing. If I hadn’t went to the Emergency Room when I did, I have no doubt I’d be in Heaven right now with my little Angel. Thankfully, I was put on Lovenox injections for this pregnancy and I am being monitored by truly helpful nurses and doctors this time. I never thought I’d be able to put a needle into my own skin, but because I know it protects my baby girl, I will continue to give myself the injections every day. They aren’t as bad as you’d think! 😉
I encourage anyone who reads my blog to comment on my posts, and interact with me. I haven’t opened up to anyone about my son being Stillborn but I decided if I can help anyone who is going through it, I will. I would also like to setup a page with your experiences of Stillbirth, and your stories. I may decide to make a separate page for women who experiences Pulmonary Embolism at any time during or after their pregnancy to help others and hopefully prevent tragedies. If you have any questions, please feel free to comment or email me at any time.
Thank you for your time and I wish you all the best!